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Eddie and Patty

Goa is a dream destination for most of the people to visit at least once in a life time, but for the residents it’s a daily routine as it was Eddie Steward who was working there in the SBI bank. She was single and a beauty with brain whose best friend was her sweet little Patty more than any human. Patty was a beautiful white kitten who mostly used to remain cladded in furry jackets enhancing her beauty, especially the royal blue jacket on her shining body hairs could give the painting goals to any artist. Whenever Eddie used to be free she takes Patty along to enjoy the tranquillity on beaches of North Goa. This was her every weekend plan until her parents who were living in South Goa called to tell about suitable match they found for her and asked her to come home on weekend as they had arranged a meeting.

“Ma, why did you arrange without asking me? I don’t want to meet anyone.”

“Eddie, we are listening that from last two years but now we can’t wait anymore, how long you want to take? You have already crossed your age.”

“Still Ma, I am not the Spinster. Why don’t you understand that I am not ready for marriage yet ??”

“And why don’t you understand, what we are going through.”

After this Eddie couldn’t say a word thinking that she might have the right to decide for her life, but she has no right of hurting her parents.

Eddie wasn’t single since she graduated the college seven years ago. She had someone in her life whom she loved so intense that when she had her break up she decided that she won’t marry. Though Ansh wasn’t a Christian lad but it doesn’t matter  and she decided to follow her heart until he left her broke, the day he realised that his feelings wasn’t that serious for her to bound himself in a commitment. Eddie’s mother sighed a huge relief after hearing about it without having any idea of her dark circumstances. Her parents were strict about the rule, they made for their princess that she has to keep the honour of the family by getting married to a Christian boy which she knew very well but her heart didn’t.

Since last four years she became an introvert who wouldn’t like to socialise much with humans after getting stumbled due to fear of getting hurt and that’s how she met Patty. She used to grumble with her most of the time when she had the urge to talk. When Eddie’s mother informed her about the meeting, suddenly she started feeling butterflies in her stomach. Now she had been alone so long with Patty that a fear of incompatibility started haunting her. But she had no choice left now.

On Saturday, it was shiny beautiful morning where the sun was bathing the beaches with its colourful rays but for Eddie it was kind of an exam day where she had no interest in breathing the beauty around rather she had to reach her home soon. After reaching home as per her mother’s instructions, she wore sky blue silk sari wrapping tightly around her snowy body which embraced her beauty more. She wanted to tie her hairs but her mother didn’t let her. After sometime the boy and his family reached.  His name was Richard Thomas, working in five-star hotel and was perfectly apt for tall, dark and handsome statement. After sometime the parents of both parties asked Richard and Eddie to spend some time alone. Though Eddie was quite reluctant to talk but a question in her mind was nagging her whether she would be able to keep her Patty along or not. Richard gave start to their conversation by asking her likes and dislikes and in return she replied asking another question on top of it, whether he like pets or not, specially cats. Richard was so intrigued by Eddie’s personality that he didn’t want to take the chance by saying no. This gave Eddie a reason to nod her acceptance, though she was still doubtful and afraid about the love she had buried deep in her heart in past deciding that she won’t fall in love with any other person.

After her daughter gave nod, Eddie’s mother was quite overwhelmed. On Sunday morning, she went to the church for thanking Jesus for accepting her prayers. Their marriage had been fixed for a date which was after three months and shopping was started. Eddie bought an elegant white gown for herself while Richard bought Turquoise blue coloured Tuxedo and the day came when they both took the oath in front of Jesus keeping Eddie’s parents dignified in honour.

Wedding happened but nobody asked Patty whether she wanted to share her partner or not and this became a reason for her resentment specially towards Richard because he was the one who came in between. Eddie and Richard started living in Eddie’s house as it was suitable for three of them. Whenever both of them used to lock themselves in the room, Patty started yowling in such high volume that Eddie couldn’t stop herself from coming out. For the starters Richard tried to understand the situation, but soon he started getting annoyed. He once asked Eddie for going out without Patty so that the duo may get some crucial time to spend. When they came back, as the door opened a foul smell get stacked to their nose, after maundering here and there, they got to know it was the poop which Patty did all around. Eddie became worried about Patty because she knew that Patty knows her place of doing shit. She took her to the doctor but everything was normal as per the doctor. He just advised Eddie for not leaving Patty alone which made Richard resentful. It was becoming difficult for Eddie to keep a balance between her spouse and her cat because neither Patty was ready for extending her hand of friendship to Richard nor he was.

One weekend on a bright Sunday morning when sun was over the head Richard and Eddie got awake only to find Patty nowhere around. Then after looking on terrace Richard found her hanging with the railing on open side. As he bends forward to bring her back, his foot slipped and he lost his balance and by that time Patty came back by herself. When Eddie came on the terrace she saw her husband lying in pool of blood on balcony of first floor. She called ambulance and took him immediately to the hospital. The doctors asked her to fill the forms so that they may take him to ICU as his situation was critical. This was the first time when Eddie was furious because of Patty as she was the one who was responsible for this hell of situation, having no idea that she literally was. After three hours of operation when doctors came out, they repeated their words about critical situation. By that time Eddie informed her and Richard’s parents about the accident. When they came and asked about the reason, she had no idea what she must say. She just told them when this happened she wasn’t there, so she has no idea. During the night Eddie’s parents asked her to go home and relax for some time. Though she was reluctant to go but the thought of taking some time to think that how all this happened, make her agreed to go.

As she reached home, Eddie sat quietly for some time thinking about all the incidents started happening just after her wedding which never happened before. While Patty came to her with a look of guilt in her sea green eyes, Eddie reluctantly asked her to leave. In these years when Eddie and Patty were altogether Patty knew how to cheer Eddie but today she was unable to do so. As Eddie stood up to throw Patty aside, her leg tangled in carpet and she fell straight on the table striking her face on it’s edge losing her valuable teeth which fell on the floor. She got swelling on her face and some scratches on her hands and legs. Eddie thought if she will tell her parents about it at the current situation they will get more worried, which filled her eyes with tears and while sobbing when she slept, she had no idea. She opened her bleary eyes when the cat, all seven pounds of squirming flesh, climbed onto her belly. Squinting into the sunlight streaming in from the open window, she discovered that she was now the weary possessor of a pounding headache, and at some point, had managed to lose both a tooth and a spouse. She thought about the moment when Richard asked her to send Patty to her parent’s home and she refused. What if I would have agreed with Richard?? Am I also responsible for his condition?  

As soon as she realised that she had been out of this world from long hours, she checked her cell phone. There were twenty miss calls in her phone quivering her body with the thought that what might have happened. She called her mother back and jumped in joy when she heard that Richard is out of danger and soon will get awake. She went to the hospital leaving Patty aside in her home. Richard was awoken and asking for Eddie. Till the time Eddie came, his parents tried to check reason of accident but he told them that as he was looking down from the grill of terrace, his foot slipped and somehow, he lost his balance and he don’t remember anything beyond. When Eddie came, she entered directly in the room and hugged Richard tightly, saying sorry in his ears with tears in her eyes. In return Richard replied with kiss on her cheek. Richard’s parents left the room to give some aloof moments to both of them.

While wetting the shoulder of Richard’s clothes with her tears, Eddie told Richard that she decided that she will not keep Patty along with them anymore after all these problems, but what Richard has said, startled Eddie’s ear drums,

I would like to befriend with Patty, who loved you more than me.”

© Payal Tyagi

This story I wrote for  Twinkle Khanna in Write India season 2 contest but could not submit it on time and the positive part is, this is the first time when could I wrote such a long story of more than 1500 words depicting the foibles of human condition through fictitious characters . You all amazing writers on word press are the judges, so I would request you all to send me your feedback.

Thanks in advance  for stopping by and taking out your time to read  🙂

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Depression #Let’stalk


Last year we heard about major sensational cases of Pratyusha Banerjee’s suicide and Jia Khan’s case ,who were not just the ordinary girls but the girls who made their name in the Indian TV industry and  get failed in love life, so they gave up . Here a question arise, do they had right to give up their life for a person who just came three to four years back, without thinking about their parents who came in  life much before that or I would say don’t think about anyone but isn’t their life so precious to ruin it for someone else who didn’t understand their value and took them for granted and the answer comes ,”No, they should not“..

Here I will narrate a real incident to inspire how nihilism of depression could be turn bright as shine of sun when it rise.I have a friend named Anu (fictional name) who was in very much love with a  boy named  Arun(fictional name) and they were happy in their relation till one year .They both were studying till that time.Arun was very much possessive for her and slowly slowly in one way or the other he got her disconnected from her friends.Even he hacked her social media accounts for a time . He just became her world & because of his dominating nature she used to do whatever he asked her to do. He used to assault her in public, but even then she couldn’t break her  relation because she was not having any trustworthy friend at that time around her whom she could rely on. After a year both completed their college and got placement.Even after so much complications in relationship Anu wanted to marry with Arun.She got job in small marketing company ,her schedule became hectic and Arun was employed in reputed MNC and he started harassing her mentally, for  working long hours and coming late at night and not searching a better job because for him it was not a reputed one.He started judging her skills. She belonged to a middle class family, who hardly afforded her education and so she had the pressure of responsibility of doing the job ,to start her career and the most notable point is  classification of job does not exist and no one becomes CEO of an organization in  a day but Arun could not understand that .She tried to change her job, but didn’t get any by that time.Gradually the fights between Anu and Arun increased and to lessen the turmoil she resigned from her job, just to make her love relationship strong & for finding better job in terms of Arun.A week after she resigned ,Arun revealed that he  want to break up the relation as he is with another girl from last one month.Her life was totally shaken as she was jobless and heart broken and none of us was with her because we didn’t know her world’s circumstances .

She found a new job but she could not come out of her depression.People around her in hostel used to make comments and bully her as if she was responsible for her break up. But she tried hard to live .She used to weep in nights,but she didn’t give up.Even she was not getting stability in job and it was difficult to survive in those dusky days.She had to change one job and  get another one,because at one place she was not liking work and at other place she became victim of politics played by colleagues.The only support she was having was of her parents,due to which she was not having courage of taking any drastic step .Eventually after an eerie phase she got a good job with stability to step up her career and after that she never turned back.She got married to a person who understand her very well and love her more than anything else.

 She told me now about this incident of her life when we met at my home.I asked her the reason why she didn’t tell me once,but I myself understood her hesitation because she was afraid of getting judged.Her story is an inspiration for every ordinary girl/boy going through same mental trauma.Our life is precious,it is a gift by God.Life may be hell today but it could turn in to bright future .Suicide should not be counted as suicide , it is a murder which is provoked by some other person whom we loved most,society and family relatives , due to which a person never come back home ,even if he/she wants too.People need to come forward and share their depression stories to lessen the burden of their heart and mind and Deepika Padukone (Bollywood Actress)started the process last year , Thanks to her for being such a great inspiration .We all have responsibility towards our society,don’t accentuate a person more who is already facing difficulty in his education ,personal life or anything else,instead we should try to make them laugh,lighten up their life by encouraging them.Nothing is better than inspiring a person to live his/her life on their own conditions


Depression #Letstalk

It’s an old post , thought to share it again.Thanks for reading 🙂

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Zumba is the new trend in fitness

Are you a person who always want to do something for yourself and your body but find gym ,jog and just exercises too boring ? then let’s do hi-5 because it happened with me too. As we know there are two kinds of people , some people who doesn’t gain weight even if they don’t exercise and eat everything and some are those kinda who if don’t take care of their body easily gain weight and I am from one of the second kinda . So in pressure of doing something, firstly I tried gym but it wasn’t apt for me ,then I started morning walk even but couldn’t continue it due to environmental effects and in this hustle bustle of trying new things, leaving them with no constraint on eating habits ,I had gained lot of weight in past few months and everybody around me made sure of reminding that.

What I had found about my requirement of joining activity was something with which I may get swayed and even if I try to discontinue, it doesn’t let me.But before finding out what exactly should I do ,I went through lots of dilemma.Firstly thought to join yoga, then about learning swimming ,joining badminton and different activities, finally I came to know about Zumba from one of my friend which was new for me and I thought of exploring it. I searched for the Zumba sessions in my area and luckily my search ended with 100 feet dance studio in Hyderabad which provides Zumba, Bollywood, Tollywood dancing and Afro beat classes.For those who are not much aware about “Zumba “,

Zumba is a “fun and effective” dance fitness class that provides “A total workout, combining all elements of fitness – cardio, muscle conditioning, balance and flexibility, boosted energy and a serious dose of awesomeness each time you leave class.A unique element of Zumba is that you receive very few verbal cues. The teacher shouts encouraging words and a few basic instructions, but mostly students watch and mimic”.

The most interesting part is that all over the world it should work on same format but every studio doesn’t follow the standards.So when I took my first session of demo class in 100 feet dance studio I became very sure that this is the thing I wanna do because here it included every activity from stretching to dancing feet with some yoga asanas and meditation. The cumulative effect of doing Zumba in my dance studio is, a body that is stiff and somewhat robotic will have to react and dance in appropriate multidirectional patterns relaxing the brain, increasing cardiovascular fitness, improving agility and co-ordination, strengthening muscles, bones from multiple angles and enhancing flexibility.

Our Instructors Geeta & Sumit

And what I liked most about my studio is that, there is no one to judge you, all you need to do is move your body whether your steps are syncing or not and after some days, body get used to moves and start copying and nobody can understand this better than me because I am very bad in following.That one hour session is to relax mind and let just the body work and sometimes different sort of complement dancing becomes the icing on cake which really connected me with Zumba class because dancing has always been my hobby and it’s really fun rather than just work out and here one can expect upbeat music and dancing, including Bollywood, salsa, merengue, mambo, flamenco, soca, samba, hip hop and tango – and if you can lean into the experience, smiles, cheering, a good sweat and possibly a few giggles will be the goodies to take along .When I started my classes I used to have muscle strain and pain but instructors guided me with some low impact version until my body regained it’s normal state.Now, I know there are people who will scoff and say that Zumba is not as intense a workout as, say boot camp or one of those ultimate beach-body classes that many gym offers. That may be true, but it is also true that a class won’t do me any good if I won’t go to it.

Me and my Zumba batch mates…

Dance performance by me and my batch mates on Balam Pichkari song……

It’s been just two months since I have joined it so I can’t boast much about the changes occurred in my body shape because I have set high goals for me ,though people around me have started complementing me but what I have noticed prominently about me is that I am feeling better about myself and gained much confidence. All I can conclude is that quintessence of my persona and dance have been embraced .

Zumba is for everybody and every body.

Thanks for reading 🙂


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Best Birthday Gift for a writer

Today is my Birthday and my life partner gifted me a book theme cake mentioning achievements of my blog from past one year, and two books on the side from the best authors of writing to read, learn and improve more in writing skills which are motivating me to take resolution of writing more, expressing more and utilising the canvas of blog for painting my thoughts and spreading the word.

Thanks Hubby 😍😍

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Myths and facts of Feminism



Feminism is  a fight against men ;

No it’s a fight against patriarchal and dominating thoughts ,

Feminism is  a fight against freedom gifted to men;

No it’s a fight against inequality between freedom of men and women,

Feminism is  a fight against the strength that a man’s body can have ;

No it’s a fight against the body shaming that only women face,

Feminism is a fight against marrying a successful man ;

No it’s a fight against repudiation of  high pay in case of woman

Feminism is a fight against customs and traditions of arrange marriage;

No it’s a fight against perfectly inelastic demand curve  set for a gender’s family.

Feminism is not fight against men, it’s a fight against thoughts.

© Payal Tyagi

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Seven steps for remaining strong and getting over from break up

Yes I am flustered…………………………….

Relationships are made for living happily with a person whom you love the most.But what if those relations become complicated ?? What if  threads of trust in relationship get break ?? or What if  the other person has taken you for granted ? I think in all such cases the answer would be it’s better to get rid from such relationship,Right ??But it’s not that easy to detach the strings of emotional connection .That’s why phase of breakup become difficult to bear and mostly people go through depression . So it won’t be a great suggestion if I would say once you breakup forget everything in a second.But yes there are few steps which may help in self – recovery :

  1. Don’t make alcohol your best friend : Not every but mostly  men and women choose this ubiquitous path of DevD so that they may sleep well ,could easily forget the person and pain of relationship. But that doesn’t happen ,instead this way may make you lost deep in black hole from which you wanted to come out.

        When you are happy consuming alcohol might be fun but when you are sad ,it becomes addiction.

2. Don’t hesitate in asking for help because your life is important : If you don’t have any trustworthy friend or family person with whom you may share about your circumstances to come out from the situation, take the help of Counselors .I know there is societal stigma attached with it as mostly people think that a person only take help of Wellness coaches and Psychologists when they go through some sort of mental disorder.But it’s not true  . This phase is so sensitive that one should take care of his /her mental health along with physical wellbeing with positive attitude and thanks to technology as there are many AI platforms in mental health care where one can take help online in an anonymous way too.


3.Go for a trip and plan for some adventurous activities: Try to change your surroundings by planning a trip with your friends or family . If you like traveling this is best naturopathy to make yourself feel better.

4.Join some activity classes for leisure  : Yoga is the best therapy for maintaining physical and mental wellbeing at a time , apart from this one can join activities like swimming, dance and music to relax mood and sustaining the inner confidence.

It is said that when people feel good about their physique, they become  more confident about themselves too.

5. Focus on your long term goals : You might have made some long term goals with the person who is not in your life anymore but that doesn’t mean that your other goals have been devastated too.This is the time when you can focus more on your career and may become legend  or may give your precious time to those people who are always standing behind you ,no matter what.

6.Not every breakup become the end of story : This point is very important because it is not necessary that if you have been through break up in your relationship once, you can’t patch up.If the duo of a love story are really connected with each other but they break up due to family issues or some ego factor , then they need to stand strong with each other forgetting the ego because if they are together then no one can come between them.

7.Forget the bitter moments of past from your life by flushing them off  from your mind and forgive people for the sake of treasuring the sweet moments .

Thank you for reading !!

Sometimes it’s important to let go the wrong person so that the right one may come in your life at the right time……

©Payal Tyagi

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Four tips you should follow if you lack lucidity in verbal communication





Have you ever encountered  problem of lucidity while communicating with other people either at work place or in social circle who misunderstood your point most of the time because you were unable to express yourself  precisely and so every time after such conversation you felt disappointed ?? If yes then you would be always thinking that what  should be the solution.Well, there are few easy tips which can be followed :

1.Don’t stop explaining :

When ever you get trapped in such conversations and presentations , don’t lose hope .If people doesn’t get your point at very first time, be patient and explain it again rather than leaving conversation in between.

2. Observe the bottle neck points :

Every time when you go through such circumstances ,observe the bottle neck points.For example if you are experiencing problem in explaining to your Boss what you did in your project , even after knowing the answer then next time write down all the points of problems you faced in your explanation and try to find whether it’s because of the language or due to lack of knowledge, solve it accordingly and rehearse before the next discussion with your Boss.

3. Take stand for yourself :

If some one try to impose their thinking on you because they think you don’t have a valid point to explain ,don’t worry, if you know why you are right ,stick to your point without hesitating and if you know there is a flaw, accept that too because you don’t need to win every conversation . For  example if some one ask you why you are still not married even at the age of 30 which is very late as per the other person then explain them that you know that you have the right to chose the path of your life rather than following standard bar of getting married before thirty even if they say you should do it.

4. Talk less ,listen more :

Most of times we couldn’t give the right answer because of lack of clarity in knowledge about the topic . So talk less ,listen more  and react accordingly .

Let me know what you think could be done more, if a person faces hurdle in putting their point forward while conversing.

Hey Fellas, Hope you all are doing well . I came on WP after a break and I was missing my interaction with you all as blogging became an important part of my life.

So thanks for being connected and keep smiling.

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Schools are no more “Temples of Education”


“ Since the time Rubina started going to new school, she ain’t enjoying her school days and most of the time make excuses for staying at home.I am afraid, what could be reason of this drastic change ? ”,her mother told to her neighbour, whom daughter Neha is Rubina’s classmate.

“My daughter also told me that Rubina doesn’t talk  much in class and  teachers insulted her sometimes for not doing home work and clam up in class, probably this could be the reason of the excuses she make, for not going to school.”

“But at least she should be interested in making new friends ,even Neha ain’t her friend.Doesn’t Neha like her company ?? ”

“Sorry ,I have never conversed about it with Neha ,so I can’t say.But you can directly question her.”

“Yeah I need to find out solution of this puzzle .”

Suddenly the bell rang ……

“Ah ! Someone is there at the door,I think it must be Neha. I will just come.”

“Yeah Sure”

“Hey Mom ,Why you took so much time in opening door ??” Neha asked to her mother.

“Beta, I was just talking to Meeta Aunty (Rubina’s Mom).She is here. Go and meet her,I will bring you juice.”

“Hi Aunty,How are you ?? ”

“I am good beta, how are you ? How is your school going ?”

“I am fine Aunty and school is  phenomenal.”

“Seems you enjoy a lot in school.”

“Yeah Aunty,I really love going to school.I am favourite of many teachers and have really great friends in school.”

“Oh !! That’s sounds so perplexing.”

“ Why Aunty ?? ”

“Because none of this is happening with Rubina, that’s the reason beta, I am sitting here.Can you tell me why Rubina feel so isolated in school that she doesn’t enjoy spending time in school ??”

“Aunty as far I know, nobody wants to talk to her in class.”

“Why??” ( Meeta was stopped dead after listening this )

“Because most of the time she doesn’t clam up when teachers ask her something.The only subject she love is Arts.So other subject teachers ordered the class mates to be at daggers drawn with her. ”

“What ?? This is happening with her and she never told me about it. How teachers can teach children such act of forbidding ?? I need to talk with the Principal about it.

Thanks for your help Beta.”

“No problem Aunty but I think it’s Rubina’s fault as she is not concentrating on her studies and so teachers don’t like her.

Neha’s mom stared at her , gesturing for not behaving this way.But she ignored.

And I have also heard from class mates that Rubina belongs to poor family and that’s why she is like this.”

“What ? ? Oh My God !! Is that also the point to consider ?? Neha beta I don’t know whether you will get my point or not, but it could be vice-versa.May be she don’t like her teachers and that’s why she don’t focus on other subjects apart from arts.Since the ancient ages ,teachers had the history of being partial on the basis of background of children, so why can’t they would be now (crying on her daughter’s ordeal )”

Rubina’ s father was a Farmer and  he wanted his daughter to be in top school of the city so that she may receive quality education and reach at a level where they couldn’t but little did they know that schools also judge students on basis of father’s occupation.

I agree with the fact that competition should be there in schools, but what kind of competition is this, where a child become a loser, in judgement  of other people on the basis of family background ??

Why teachers can’t treat every child equally ,irrespective of whether student is concentrating /not concentrating on studies ? Isn’t their responsibility to check what’s wrong with the child and how they can improve, rather than just giving the punishment of isolation ??

It is always said that, “schools days are best ”.But  it’s a wrong statement for those children who doesn’t get a  second chance ,when they remain unable to prove themselves in first round.

This is the reason why children come under stress and anxiety at such a age when they  should live their life care free.


This  is the first time I am penning down a tale, inspired by true events.Thanks for reading and please share your feedback.Your feedback will help me to improve and ink more quality work for you.

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Not Introvert but Sociophobic


She has many friends to tell her about their happiness , but when ever she get sad she can’t share her feelings because of fear of getting misjudged. She doesn’t want to go to social gatherings  because of the fear of getting hurt and embarrassed. She doesn’t want to hang out with friends because  her counter point may  get her remarked as arguable person and now she is not confident anymore when  surrounded by people.

Why this phobia happened ?

 She felt  that whenever she has tried to get close with any of her friends ,they mocked her by telling about ambiguity of her talks which hurted her. When she tried to enjoy in a function people just commented on her appearance and how she behaved over excitededly. When ever she expressed her opinion either people had thrown their tantrums  telling that  her opinion is absurd or just tried to impose their opinions on her.

So now a question arises ?  Who is responsible for her Sociophobic condition ?

Either she or society …..

Does anybody have the answer ??????

 Criticism of being natural generates phobia of being social…..

This post is not any gender specific ,it’s just explained by an instance.

So if you have any such friends , don’t make them feel awkward as each of us have some nuisance inside , just try to understand such people and you may get a best friend in them.

© Payal Tyagi